i felt like a dumb ass. Dumb of my acts, dumb of my dumbness. been doing things to irritate T unintentionally, hoping T will get irritated with this whole dumb thing. i will cry, and forget about it. its just as well as waiting for time to kill memories. Just been wanting to cry on your shoulders, but fearing to cry. I will never let T know i am crying. not my pride, but knowing T gets guilty easily. Dont want T to know. dont want T to feel guilty. I m just happy enough to see T smile. When T's sad, i am even sad-der. I just want T to be happy. and of course, keeping up the image of being a happiest soul. i thank god for helping me, by telling me that things probably wouldnt work out and tht i was never meant for T. T can get someone better off than me. with what T have, T can. i am jus not good enough for T. i am up to no where. i am happy just being like tht, my dear jie. i want to grow old with him. seeing him getting a good gf, fulfilling all T dreams, attending T marriage ceremony, i will always be T best friend. i cannot guarantee T happiness, but i gave friends my words for friendship. people may find me dumb. i dont need them to tel me. i just need u to assure me, tht i will be fine. thanks for showering me with ur care and concern. i love u, my dear jie. i hope things are getting fine for you. cheers. love you.
posted by i am simple. yeah. alwaes. @ 12:51:00 AM
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