Monday, September 05, 2005

aiya. what the fook.

i went out wif irah princessie to bugis. and and and the shop vender commented something, tht i can simply related it as "U're FAT!". yay, the truth was real hard. it hit me real hard, i huld sae. i went emo. i cried on NEL. and there tis lil' girl who told her father "papa, chae chae crying" it made me more sadddddd.
when i was changing, he told irah "hey, she look like a chinese arh"
i was like.. "huh,我是华人啊 "(i m a chinese)
him: Huh! 你会讲华语啊！(u speak mandarin!)
me: 我是华人当然会讲华语啦！(i m chinese of cos i speak mandarin!) i mean its unless i m a potato rite. anyways. this is not the first time ppl say i m a malay. besides, AH beng say i look abit like malay. AH bENG! u CANNOT MAKE IT LA! haiyo.
its okae. i feel orite, hmm, shuld there is any more pain, i wilwuld haf cry out. it juz hit me so hard and pain. oh god. it's reallie traumatic to me. can anyone understand it? to me, all these years i've tried to achieved, its like wad tong's wife said, "it's peanut". u noe. oh god.
i've been thinking. sometimes i feel tht i've been bottling up. sometimes i feel tht there's something i wanna share, but i culdnt bring i up. i noe exactly what i was feelin', but i dont see the point of telling anyone. sometimes i wanted to tell someone, but i frantically forget the moment i try to forget it. its paradoxic. am i being called kind? haha. prolly not. but i dont mind. i juz felt like i want to lead a happy life, and i m leading. happy. trulys, i m finding meaning to my life, not attaching meanings yet.
don worrie guys. i love all of u. kenny boi, take care. there's gotta b more to life. =) glaed to know u r glong on fine yay!
anyways, princes, don worrie. i m no tht weak. hehe. anyways, i've been bingeing again.....! oMG!

posted by i am simple. yeah. alwaes. @ 9:52:00 PM

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