kiss my forehead and say iloveyou: August 2005

many thanks to the lil' one in me

dear inner-mind sweetheart

thanks for listening to me when i needed so much to tell someone. and i noe u wil b there even when everyone is asleep. thanks for alwaes being there for me when i thot i am drowning from all the events tht took place which i can hardly handle. and i noe u wil help me a lil' coz u r smarter den me. thanks for listening to my sorrowful sobs at night when i started curlin' up and cry like a lil' ger. and i noe u must b thinking i wil feel betterthis wae , do u? thanks for hearing me curse and swear when ppl got me on my nerves and i was jumpin' and yelling at the top of my voice in mind. and i noe u must b thinking tht's a lil' so unlike me rite. *grins* thanks for telling me my friends love me, and if i culd b happy, they wil b too. thanks for telling me friends last longer den anything, they r a lifetime assurance. thanks for telling me tht everydae i haf to wake up happy, so tht my daes wil b full of surprise and happiness. =) thank for teaching me to appreciate all i haf in life including my family and friends. thank for teaching me to my friends n those who r impt to me tht i love them, i miss and all. thanks sweetheart. thanks for keeping me accompany when i was alone at times and no knowing what to do. thanks for alwaes standing in my mind when i walk thru the crowded malls alone and passing the frightening stares of the unfamiliar ppl. and i noe u wil tel me becoz i m special therefore they r staring. thanks for waiting for me at home when i thot there wuld b nobody at home, welcoming my home-coming. thank for sitting by my mind when i sat thru the lonely journey to school on bus 13 in the morning and when i come home on a mondae nite. and i noe u alwaes try to distract me from thinking bout anything tht probably make me cry like the last two times. thanks for sitting by mind in the NEL mrt and block the air con when i feel so cold. thanks for reminding i haf a jacket in my bag to wear when i m feelin' cold. thanks for reminding me i haf a MD to listen to if u may not be free to hear me out at times. thanks for making life easy for me to pass when i thot i may not hang on anymore. and each time i feel so, u owaes tell me tomorrow gets better. thanks for wiping my tears for me when ther's no tissues or toilet roll. u simply wipe it off n tel me to pray. thanks for whispering to me tht it's over when i happened to think of things i shuldnt touch on anymore. and i noe u r alwaes so gentle towards me. thanks. thanks for encouraging me to stand on my feet when i fell deep into the pit and injured myself so badly. and u came running with the plasters to stop my bleeding and cut tht may scar me for life. thanks for giving me a blanket when it was so cold at nite and i was freezing. thanks for listening to my singings of every moments in my life and hearing my lines in between the lyrics. i noe u understand it when i sing. thanks for telling me tht things wil b orite to live alone without her. coz u assure me u wil b there from now and den in times of need and love. thanks for telling me tht life will still be the same like last time when i first started out alone in this world. u alwaes kip me accompany rite? thanks for healing every woes of mine when i merely forget abt it when suddenly someone rub salt to it. u fear tht i would b hurt therefore u alwaes try to heal it fast n put a layer of protective shield against any attack. thanks. thanks for making dreams sound so real. i alwaes wake up feelin' so fresh and happy. thanks for giving me a strong instinct tht i wasnt wrong. juz like tht time, n i din regret tht. =) thanks for kisssing me at my forehead at nite when i needed a lil' bit of security and love, i guess i imagined u did, and i realli felt it, sweetheart. thanks. thank for filling in the emptiness when i was alone. i never felt afraid eversince i found u living here. thanks sweetheart, thanks. u always make my life seems wonderful n happy even though there's hurt and sadness, and u always make sure tht i endure thru it and b stronger. thanks. love u, sweetheart innermind.

SIncerely yours
Princie

i haf a life of stories. Do u?

i've been thinknig what story book to buy and sucha an excruciating pain in the neck and there i got, two boys pending my birthdae pressie passed me tis book "chicken oup for the teenage soul III". i was reallie happy coz it helps in reducing the amount of brain cells dying the moment i enter a bookshop. hehehe.
i've read a few stories. mani portions. the first to come to was relationships. it was kinda sad, everything rings a bell. how things turnsour and how ironic it was. BUT i wasnt feelin' an urge to cry. Lil' did i expect myself to NEARly cried on the train was when i read FRIENDSHIPs "fallin' out"! gosh it was reallie sad!!! prolly the contributor haf said sumhing tht kinda felt heartbreak and it gif me more den moments to ponder about myself when i was in relationship. she said " i've never paid attention to the saying tht boyfriends and girlfriends come and go, while ur friends wil last forever"
there's this letter which she wrote to her bestie who oreadi had a girlfriend. here it says:
" Dear Travis
what's happening to us? I used to feel so close to you, but now it's as if there are miles between us. i haf alwaes believed the friends come before anything else-girlfriends and boyfriends-everything. i guess i was wrong. Thanks for the push back to reality. i am sorry tht we haf had a falling out, but i want you to know tht i will stil b here when(and if) you need me. i will miss u."

ARHHHHS! so SAD. when she cried and passed a lil lobster plus back to travis, and the part travis pulled her into his arms, i felt so touched! she said "it was one of those hugs tht reassures you tht someday everything wil b all right"
and prolly when u gif tht special smile to tht person, it tels tht everything is stil like before, at least at tht moment, its happening? =)
"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes.. just be an illusions. " this is so true isnt it. =) besides, what is more happy den be happy! life is not a lonely path, u take pride n gif ur heart, it's juz all it takes!
and i noe my friends worth more den relationships.think back, i prolly miss out alot with them. alot. i hope it isnt too late to say th but still, I love all of you ppl. all. muacKS. life is so much worth living wif all of u tht push me to live on life a happy time. thanks.

GOd, can u return it to me?

Group Pict! i realli miss those times..

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I reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i realli miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i realli miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times. i reallie miss those times.

I intended to to study a lil' u noe. haha. but i went out to eat at sakae wif Lyza and nasha at bugis! HAHAA! twas fun! coz i agreed wif lyza to treat nasha and act like i was angry! HAHAAH! tht poor chap reallie thot i was mad with him n so he was...beraft of words! hahha. so he bug lyza and den lyza asked me.."leekheng, do u wanna haf a peaceful lunch todae?" OF COS i Nodded! and She said, "DEn Cut the CraP!" XP
WahahHAAH! NASHA waas SHOCKED. haahh! HAHAH! AH bang AH bang! wann bullie me sumore!! HHA!=P

todae

SUrprised!

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Hhe! todae went to tampines mall wif yueying! hha~! had my fav food pasta over there!! hahaha! took pict wif her fone! =PP
had a fun dae! i m so tired!!!!! gosh! hehee! cya ppL!
i juz feel so happy happy happy! coz i receive compliments! hAAHAH!

SUmtimes i think i m rude..

BUT Not UNTIL WHEN I SAW a lady, an indian man and a Man In the TRAIN! a lady was digging her nose. u NOE? HOW CLD SHE DO THT! GOSH! and the indian man.. he was ruminating.. and den suddenly he tried to dig his left ear, and den he PUT THE FINGER at HIS NOSE TO SMELL IT. CAN U BELIEVE IT? SMELL IT! OH god. and the man. he was picking his pimple.. den lowly he rubbed his face wif tht finger he dug his pimple, den he tipped it into te mouth! GOSH! wad's wif these ppl! i m growing so mad! all these things shuld b done at home isnt it?! yay, u can even dig ur arse and smell it, bu no in the train rite?! GOsh. *VOMITS*

aweee. all of a sudden i think i m veri so well-mannered especially PUBLIC-manners. HHAA. no choice! coz i m L-e-e K-h-e-n-g! tht juz make SOOoOOO muCH more DIFFerence! =P

hurt.

i feel hurt. and worthless. now i noe why. eveything is so practical. anywae, u noe wad, u r a bloody bitch. people. i m turning straight! i may cry now.. coz i felt so used. my sympathy being used. i love u? WTF.
i wil b slimmer, prettier, and stronger.

Heheh!

well, these are some of the picts. i did some selections u noe. coz there's realli alot. i even wanna put up video! twas' fun! kekeke! i think prolly i wil put more tmr. coz it' like So freaking memorable!!! kekeke! and ppl. i've cut my hair! i think it looks good. hAHa. anywae, goodnite!

WAtch Ur BACk!

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it's the ghost fest.. listen carefullie...

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WTF! wad's THT!!!!

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The BIrthdae PrincEESSSSS IRAH~! my LArLing!

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Gotcha?! HEeeHe

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when man takes over women's role.

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When the gays get too horny in public

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the 3 flowers n 1 idiot(the on carry pillow)

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BAck~!

cute baby hamster!

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HEe! arent they cute?! i love them! gosh!!!
hehe! i had lotsa fun at the chalet! but i shal no blog it so soon coz i wan towait til all the picts r ready!! hehe knowing tht there's visitors owaes. haha!
WAHHH! orite orite.. okae.. i noe got ppl read my blog.. okae PPl, i "heard" u! okae eugene im marie Joanne! hAHa! thanks okae. u guys take good care yay!HEehe! i've got lotsa FUn! thanks for reading.. haaha. i m fine! reallie! =) thaks, u guys r my strength of pillars whenever i m fallin'. thanks alot. i mean it. =)
i went out shortly after i cam home juz now! went out to PS wif NAsha n jere. HAA. so damn lame. we were toking crap abt everything and the chalet. u noe! it' so fun. they r like my brothers. hhe. (not to mention tht they lik to bullie me. WTH). we walked down the esplande to watch the fireworks!!! so nice! hahha! i shuld haf step on nasha and Jeremy's back to view it sia! and my princessiE!!!!!!! HApppy 18th birthdae!!!!
i m juz shO excited! hahaha. orite orite. i've gotta b a good ger n study. HAAH. we leap a lil' okae! haa. ( i don mean now. hmm. tmr. yay.)
lalalala. i m happy like a lil' ger. hehe!

"down" syndrome

I m totallie irritated agitated pissified-ed. anyone wanna pacifiy me for a moment or two? i feel a lil' emo. i wun b able to blog over the weekends. coz i've got chalet over at pasir ris for Irah's birthdae. nahz anyway nobody wil read my bloggies, so i donhaf to bother tht much.
shitty, im feelin'. totally sucks. wad's happening. hell. i've been blabbering bout' everything. i mean anything.
Arhs. i cant stop. i've gotta pack my bag. i wanna sleep earlie. LEEKHENG, FORGET EVERYTHING! orite??
oh mine. Damn. Nahz. i can work hard on life. i can. i noe i can. i noe.
*LK starts the GURU chant.*
peepz. i wil b fine kae. love ya ppl. everyone, and ying! u better take good care of yaself. and of cos u, my dear fren. :)

arhs. God.
hopefullie i'll load lotsa picts here when i get back from my weekends yay? ;p cya guys.

i culd stil hear..

post syndrome

seriously. i culdnt sleep last nite. everything came flushing back. nope. it don hurt as much. tears was welling up somewhere else. not in my eyes.
i cut myself the dae b4 by accident. it was so painful. and i' gonna leave an ugly scar. tht's not so much of a problem, the problem is THAT FREAKING-LY SUCKS!!!

i culd stil hear
my heart shattered into pieces
i culd stil hear
the echo tht
follows behind ur name
i culd stil hear
the memories callin' above me
i culd stil hear them
but not as clear
i wish i culd hear
hear more den what they sae
hear more den what they see
and hear the heartbeat
tht used to beat
before the blooming
and i culd stil hear
the footsteps nearing my heart
yet tis time round
more farther apart..

on a monday, lil' peevish

i woke up earlie and went to tpy to book an appointment at hair etc. i wasnt too sure if i wan to cut it. but probably a new hairstyle starts a new chapter of ma life. yay. and to cut away ends. i m not as emo as ytd. but i noe i feel lil' sad. opening the wardrobe, seeing half of it gone. wad's worse den feelin' sad. emo is the worst feelin'. nahz. i juz gotta leap a lil' higher. and forget a lil'.
i supposed.
Yuan Kai came to look fo me in the library. hahha. i m touched! but tht boi muz b too boring no ppl acc den cm look fo me. think i donno har! haa!
and realli appreciate all my frens n poly frens. all of them are so devoted and dedicated their time to me. kekke. thanks ppl. i mglad i met all of u. esp my princess, princessie, princessa. hehee. take care yay.

here's this verses, tht i wrote a yr ago. i edited sl.

i walk down the aisle of this lonely street
and saw the candy we used to eat
yet this time round
i ate alone
for you
no longer in my life

i gazed upon the starry nite
and found the stars tht glued us tight
yet this time round
they drifted apart
for us
no longer heart to heart

"the Rose" hummed in my ears
the hurt so strong, i lost control
yet this time round
i cried. and cried.
and you
no longer by my side

your number
i culd stil remember
my folders, the messages
became painfully memorable

when i sleep
i'm no longer in your arms
when i weep
u're no longer in my life

i thought i could
to smile and b strong
but somehow
the tears
they just kept jerking down

the lonely stars
brimmed so brightly tonite
and i realise
you arent gonna be by my side
i know it's time
to let it go
for whatever may come
to come and bind
in a life tht i may define

i supposed
and meant to believe
tht time passes
and memories never fade
the photos we took
and the sweet loving dates

here i set out
on this familiar street
i smile my way
and walk with grace
the pain had ceased
and time had stopped

at the moment
on the path i once took

at the moment
when ur smile still gleams

they sae we cant decide
to cry for whoever
and they sae
we can only decide
to carry on with life

i don deny i stil love u
but i probably
freeze tht lil' love
into my memory
and frame them up there

and i wil walk on
together
with tht memory

together.

together, forever.

cry a lil, jump a lil', forget a lil'

i admit. i cried. everything was so unbearable. so terrible when i got emo. i sob a lil', sing a lil', and at the same time, try to forget a lil'. i feel like i m spinnin' round and round. i got so used to it. it's hard kickin' a habit for 14 months.
i was at Jp with princess eileen and princessie irah. i ended at esplanade at 8plus going 9. alone. i was at peace. tunin' into MD, listening to SHE's "remember to forget". i wasnt crying though. i was so calm. i walked and strolled a lil' alone. until i reached the bridge. i stood there, by the cove. twas' windy, and peaceful. there were crowds and crowds of ppl walking past me. i din noe wad i was searching for amidst the crowd. i juz kept on lookin'. prolly for some familiar faces i may have missed all these while.
i sat at the sides, all alone. many moments, many ppl walk past and glance at me. btw wad's so WEIRD abt sitting there alone? i may b alone, ~~it's hungry ghost fest,~~ i din creep behind ur back yay, ppl? u noe, i don wish to b a sobber rite now ~~i did it a moment ago~~ essh, i was kidding. i mean it gets a lil' emo if i write something so deep from my heart. or probablllyy, i shuld sae, i don wish to write it now, ermm, yet.
i seriously wish all the best in her life. and take care ppl. yay. i admit one more thing.. i stil love her tonnes.. rite now, i din realli noe wad to blog. but i realise sumthing amazing 'bout myself. tht is i get hilarious whenever i cried loud and sob like a child, scream like a lil' gerl. but it feels great after tht. i noe it wil feel like the whole world is collapsing when i get emo. but as long as i cry, i cheer up myself. it's great to cry and sob coz after tht, i tend to feel strong again. be it how many thots went tru' my mind, i dropped it the moment i feel okae. i can onli kept telling myself, "u've gotta be strong" and u noe. so much.
i can onli kip repeating tht and oso..
let's leap a lil' higher. shall we? i realise tht all of us are plants. yay? we need h2o o2 sunlight nutrients. and of cos ur smile tht shows me u love me. haha. i m sad. but i m reallie okae with it. so don worrie 'bout me.
yay. i supposed.

i heard ur name

in the wind

the echoes follow behind

lingers my memories

how can i stop it

i cant

i haf to face it bravely

face-to-face with it

yes dear

leap higher.

=)

i m okae

reallie. i m. i m single now. but i wanted to tel everyone tht i had a good relationship, and i enjoyed thru tis 14 months and 5 daes. though there were sadness sometimes, it's normal. rite? i want u to noe tht i realli love u. i've never regretted and i appreciated u for entering my life once. u wil owaes b a dream in my heart. though the story ended, but it mark a new beginning to our friendship. rite? though i cant stop crying, and probably wil cry for the nex few daes or weeks, but i wil be strong. everyone plz take care okae. and i reallie wil b strong. life goes on. and u too.

a dream so beautiful
til' now i stil remember
every moment
every second
every place
all of them
i will treasure them
the wonderful times
the sorrowful cries
it's all over
but the ending blooms
to another new
beginning
like the first time we met
so sweet
and memorable
it will
coz i had frame them up
in tht lil' corner of my heart
nobody can take it awae
though colors may fade
and time may cover it
probably
the nex time i open it up
the memories
wuld cum flushin' back
i wuld smile
and tel myself
so beautiful, these dreams
when tomorrow
i wake up
the fresh morning dew
wil mist up my windows
like they alwaes do
and bus 13
wil stil b crowded
wif all the sec sch kids
my name
wil stil b lee kheng
and my life
wil stil b as good
So are u
my dear fren

esshhhh, too much time~

been going out every single dae after school. sumtimes i don even noe whether i m schooling or am i a loiter-er. hehee. well, home is too boring, coz i go nothing to do. i was like hafing good sleep, i leep alomst like i never sleep before. hehe. i slept like a log. i cnt imagine how tired i was. hehehe.
i went out wif irah and lyza to queenswae. the spec shop there r so GOOD! i wanna make one frm there nex month! yes yes. huina n yiwen are asking me to join ocean butterflies for dance. i SHY~! shit. HAHA~ lalalala~~~

kiss my forehead and say iloveyou

Sunday, August 28, 2005

many thanks to the lil' one in me

Saturday, August 27, 2005

i haf a life of stories. Do u?

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

GOd, can u return it to me?

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

todae

SUmtimes i think i m rude..

Thursday, August 18, 2005

hurt.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Heheh!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

BAck~!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

"down" syndrome

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

post syndrome

Monday, August 08, 2005

on a monday, lil' peevish

Sunday, August 07, 2005

cry a lil, jump a lil', forget a lil'

Friday, August 05, 2005

i m okae

Thursday, August 04, 2005

esshhhh, too much time~

lets wee hear

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