.busy tues?.
I juz came home~~!
heeees
todae was great!
had fun wif zur
i had an angry patient who raid
at my staff nurses n me
she was soOoOO angry!
huh?
wad makes her angry arh?
Cuz she was hungry..
she went for OGD
and den she din eat
when she return
she got so agitated
and she raid at me
rules r rules
not easily changed
especially by sumone like me
HOW CULD I EVER GIF her
wad SHE WANS?
i'm juz a smaaaallllll smalllll student
(Obviously not in terms of size)
aniwae
i'm not mad at her
she was juz agitated
i was a translator todae! HEhehe
i went to another cubicle
heee~
i went to A&E oso
though i'm quite sotong
but i managed to get there
and back to the ward
*clap clap*
it was fun~!
i muz faster finish my case study~
heeeeeees
aiyOOoOOOOOo
todae i wasthinking sumting perplexed
i made up.. hmmm
10 reasons why SOME(say 1/10 guys)
guys like fat gers
heeee
when i'm free
den i blog
hee
lazy~
take care pple!!!!
especially mic eileen irah lyza nash
mizzzu guysss sooo much!
Attachments
SianZwhen's attachment finishinghaii a few daes nvr updateaniwaebeen toking to the seniorsand those hafing attachment in the same ward as me_________________________MOST FREQUENT ASKED QNS (by me)Lk: Errm, so do we usuallied get gossip-ed..?Yr3: yup. depends la. sumtimes u juz listen loh.den learn from it loh. u r still 'young'.they usuallie wil tok abt ur working attitudedon think so much lohLk: r u afraid when u like 1st enter the particular ward for attachments?Yr3:of co. don worrie. juz built rapport wif them( the nurses) loh.Lk: i veri scaRED eh. coz i owaes veri sotong one.. den i scARED like do wrongly or wad.Yr3: hmmm, no la. afterall i've been sptong-ing these years so far i haven get scolded for tatDon worrie. juz gain xperience n learn._________________________Version 2Lk: Hmm, last time u got kena gossip by ...?NM: ya.. juz don care loh. i last time oso veri like bothered of wad ppl say abt mebut nvm la, as long as u noe u do things correctly den don worlie loh. we learn together kaes.Lk: thanks. =)NM: don sat tat, we learn things together loh, don worrrie. _________________________Seriously, i appreciate thse kind ppl. my Yr 3 seniors, my new frens in attachments. they r so kind. the PCA oso veri kind.Heee. i guess the staff nurse though they don look NICebut i believe they ca b veri good toowhether is it a li or noti muz make my attachment in tis ward a fruitful onei get to noe logas deepern i thinkshe's not sobad afterallshe has her cutenessn of cosperhaps her own way of life=)i shall juz forget abt how the ENlooked at meperhapsmaybprobablyi'm too sensitiveoritesI'm waiting for nex sat! geeees~!~~decharacter~~Irah Yueying! MuAHAAH~!*secret*
ah peks
i think i haf a big problemWIF ah peksespecially theolddrunkWEirdAh pEksSssSsthey either haf severe cataractsor they cnt see too wellWAT IS IT IN ME TAT THEY R INTERESTED IN?!I met one ah pek once when i was eating wif ma frensn he walked pastin small quick stepshe pausedlooked at mewalkpausedlookwalk pausedlook walkTIS IS HIlarious!and there was another time i took a bus home frm schoolI'm prettyyyyyyy surethere r seats availableWHY DID HE SIT BESIDE ME?i cross my leg, he didi fold my arms, and he didi uncross my leg, he mimickedi unfold my arms, he followed!AND DENi stood up!he din follow me down the busi'm gladd~~~~~and during the one week breaki met a drunk (GRRRRRHHH..)uncleHE REALLI FREAK ME OUT!out of KIndnessi was juz showing him EYEs tat there's seat beside meBUT HELL!he was looking at me AS IF MY BOOBS R OUT OF MY SHIRTOR MAYBE MY FACE WROTE
"MUACKS, COME SIT BESIDE ME"walaooooo....he walked past men BLARDY HELL.A strong LIQUOR smell~(cant b his perfume?~!)i juz look downand he stood beside mewaiting for me to shift for his entrancei was like..SHIT GOT ON METhe whole bus was so quieti sat FAR from himand he SWUNg his legs n got near measked in muffled voice"Donwan to sit near arh"X2SHIT!!! i juz stood up, intending to go down the busobviously he followedi din get downhe did, n turnd back to looked at me a secSHIT GOT ON ME! Todaei was in my nursing Uit was rainingbut i culdn't help but walk home in the raini walked past the bus stopsn this two dirty old man in mid ageconversed"where she from sia"and i walked past their sight" WAHh, grey colour one!"i mean d-uh...i wearing greybut SO ?i was once againSHITTTT!!!I'm not prettyeven sowhy DIRTY OLD MAN?!!!!!!
.tired.
i din noe how to describe my feelingsrite now.I juz cam backfrom grand dad's funeraltis morning was a dae of sorrowI watched himand a flow of memoriesflashed thru' my mindthe time when grand dad took care of me in SGand bought me nasi lemakwalk me to schoolbuy me putu mayami din teared on fri n satbut it was indeed shockingjuz when i return home on friand they told me"grand dad passed awae tis morning"it took me seconds b4 i reallie received the messageGrand dadi did not see ur last momentmy sincere apologyi did not sob or cry out loudi cried silentlyit was a christian ceremonythere were so mani conflictsn why r adults so childish n pettishmummmmay couldnt controlher sobs n tearsi huggd her n she cling on to me so tighti knew she felt more den upsetshe told me she saw grand dadn he was sufferingThey say he goes to heavenn Mummmay saw him therewhich is whichi don understandgrand dadgrand dad....i kept calling u at ur facethis 3 daesi noe u heard megrand dadi m beginning to mizz ugrand dadmay u rest in peacewhen we followed behind the van everyone broke down intoparoxysm of sobs
it was more den hurt to mewhen i saw ur pict asthey closed the doorof the crematory roomi felt my heart stoppedwhen i tried to yell out"Ye ye!"grand dad.. i lurfe uno matter where u ru wil alwaes bein memory of us
.i noe why.
After hafing weeks ofdeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep ruminations i finallie understood why had i been kinda stressed up wif schooli am waiting wif irah nowfor time to strike 4pmthere was onli two of us @ LTK1guess wotwe saw the whole gang marched passed usprobably don even notice our existencenow dat it hits the bell in meis it like Einstein's theory_____________________________Albert Einstein (1879–1955). Relativity: The Special and General Theory. 1920.
XXI. In What Respects Are the Foundations of Classical Mechanics and of the Special Theory of Relativity Unsatisfactory?"I am standing in front of a gas range. Standing alongside of each other on the range are two pans so much alike that one may be mistaken for the other. Both are half full of water. I notice that steam is being emitted continuously from the one pan, but not from the other. I am surprised at this, even if I have never seen either a gas range or a pan before. But if I now notice a luminous something of bluish colour under the first pan but not under the other, I cease to be astonished, even if I have never before seen a gas flame. For I can only say that this bluish something will cause the emission of the steam, or at least possibly it may do so. If, however, I notice the bluish something in neither case, and if I observe that the one continuously emits steam whilst the other does not, then I shall remain astonished and dissatisfied until I have discovered some circumstance to which I can attribute the different behaviour of the two pans."____________________________________Well, i donno if u guys understand this quotebut aniwae, tis is abt physics okaei'm juz stating in terms of my feelingOrites i try to elaborate kaeGas range = the situationtwo pans = groups of ppl(one group r my frens, the other group ..?)Steam = the passionate feeling i had for tat groupBluish colour( gas flame) = the 'X' factors tat make me feel happy wif tis group n not the otherHmm, understand? Okae, it's juz likei m able to blend in tis group but y not the other? they looked the sameor of same 'name' in terms of r/sbut how come with the "steam" i haf in this "pan"i am not able to to haf the same "bluish flame" in another "pan"?SO NOwlike Einstein's last sentence"i shall remain... difference behaviour of the two pans"i guess i foud the real reason!AhAi think most of u wont understand tis long entry i've wrote rite
.uh-huh.
uh huh.uh huh. uh huh.uh huh. uh huh. uh huh.i'm mugging *soon soon soon okae*HaiSociology is such a pain in da neckWorStbioscience?i think will b a pain in the arse*oopS*aiiiieeeeesssshhhhhand wad's freaking me out is the attachment rite after examswad is tisi lost all my private spacei was SOOOooOOooOOooOOOooOOPISSEd off last eveningi was arguing wif my uncle HE LOOKED DOWN ON NURSING PROFESSIONWAD is this------------------------------------------(I SomPa i TOTALLY haf NO OBJECTION against OTHER profession n COURSE)The conversation goes like this:Uncle- y u wan to choose tis kind of course?me-y? nursing good wadUncle- good? u r serving ppl(dirty job), good mehSERVING ppl EH ( he raised his voice)me-NO, it's not all abt serving ppl, it's abt caring for them and their allrounded lifestyle apart frm health.Uncle- last time ah jie oso wan to go nursingi ask her choose smthing more modernlike COMPUTER la, Engineering la.. Me-Gu(uncle), i tell u, u wan to study these coursesbut u muz noe SG market veri small onliu wan gd future, prosper, u haf to go to big markets like china..Uncle- TIS IS ur personal THINKING ONLIMe- u don believe? u can mummmmay. It's all abt doing good.i wan a better life nex life.Uncle- It's JUZ ur PERSONAL THINKING ONLiMe- seriously, wad so bad abt nursing?Uncle- Tell me how much u earn the most?Me- basic 1000 plus per monthUncle- if u wan to b nurse, y not study b doc?Me- doc? u think so easy arh, u work tat environment kena bully sia.Uncle- it's not abt kena bully la, u ..Me- Y doc good? y cannot nurse? U all say doc is good because Docs r the first profession recognisedand gain a status in societyUncle- ... yesterdae ah jie went to help ppl fix compearn 70 bucks.Me- oh, is it.Uncle- u go attachment nex weekhow much u all getMe- *piSSED*------------------------------------------i shall stop here. he's juz being materialisticwad do he noe abt nursing i can proudly say NOTHINGi can be veri mean to u if i wanbut i din cuz i stil show respecti don juz b mean to u as a when i likeit's onli when u do sumthing wrongtat i haf to show u wad u did
.mugging.
I'm mugging. *sounds real*Ah Hahai think so la uhi'm not a perfectionist serious, i'm notwellmy wound has not been realli healingso i thot i juz..i realli donno.but definitely i haf no intentions of going back to the the clinic i think soit's been bleedingand it dripped outside my roomi was traumatisedcoz i still haf activities aheadlike orientation and stuffsi donnoi guess i haf made quite a number off ppl who dislike mebut aniwaei guess i wil wan to goto the temple and prayit's been a long timeeversince i haf a peaceful mindso mani thingsso mani problemssumtimes it makes me think does speaking truth made one being dislikedbut aniwaei think i shuld cut downon words like "F**K"hahai muz learn to b moreword-friendlyHAHAAsumtimes u were disliked for the wae u rOOhmay i nid to reflect on myself denheeeeeeeeeeeaieeeeshhhmy shoulder is kinda aacheingit sems like eveywhere is a headacheto meoh goshhhmy club adidas brazilian green jacket..*wave goodbye*aniwaei believe frens wuld b for a lifetimeeventuallieu still forgive but nv forgetsumtimes even forsake n don remember itor juz let go of tis frenshipso mani choicesjuz pick oneit aint hard ritefrens r my spiritual pillars when i falli still haf them afterall! heesthanks eileen irah mic lyza nash yueying akirahaha.
.tis cal frenship.
why haf i became so childishto believe the frenshipin u n meif tis is wad u call friendshipU r Farking Good at it deni am bad womani am shiti am badmoutherrite? is tat wad u r thinking now?yai am toking shityanobody believes meyau r correct wad i said was wrongyaoritei shut up nowhappie?if wad was mentioned was trueU goodu r farking goodBut u noe wadBuddyi m not a loseru r a losercuz u avoidwhy cant we tok things out peacefullyooi guessThat's the end of this wad-u-call-friendshipand wad they name itpoly-frens-last-a-life-time(mayb, at least i found sum true ppl)i am shit rite?
.Friendship.
sumtimes
things in life r so weird
u waited so long
u den realise
it's not like wad u tot
it's a long, long journey
when u realise
u've been drifting thru'
the shores all alone now
the places all of us went b4
became times so desirable
i hold on to the memories
so tight
and so den i can remember them
my whole life
from now n den
i'm still holding on to it
the smiles n the hearty chats
on this journey to find
the lost memories
promises, most of the time
look as if they r butterflies
flying gracefully
and den disappear
sometimes it feels no one understands
i don even noe why i do the things i do
but there again
wad's left..
may onli be the fotos
they say
memories
fade away when time passes
and they say
best friends r ur old mirror
but why din they say
everything will b the same juz like the time we last met
did i went outta earth
or
i no longer belong to that world
even at times now
my tears start rolling
i'll wipe it
wif the laughters and joy
dat all left inside my heart
u cant compare
or measure how good
those times culd be
because
some things in lifeor maybesom pplcan nvr be
substituted.
.THe Surgery.
Oh Fooki woke up at 9 todaei was full of anxietyi was about to go for my surgeryscheduled at 11amoh shi-ateee (shit)i cant imaginewad doctor Looi is gonna do to mei culdnt eat muchmummayy u'll b there riteeedadddayy i'm SCAREDhere i arrived at the surgeryOMIGAWDit's freaky cold in herei haven seen Dr Looiwonder how doe he look like"GOH LEEKHENG, u can enter NOW"Uh.. so fast arh..? i swallow one mouthful of salivai felt butterflies in my stomachOhhhhh... Shhhiitttteeee...Mummaay u don luff at m kaesssss"ttzzzEeee Tzzzeeee tzzzeeee"Huh.. wad's tat sound..? it' freaking me out (<__>)"Cum" Dr Looi say firmlyhe smiled den, "u prefer to sit or lie down?""............""okae la, i think u lie down better"*Nod Nod**chiin chinn cheng cheng chin chin cheng cheng*Dr looi preparing his equipmenthe operate the electricityfor burning tat "idiot" on my foot"tzzeee TTZZEEEE TZZZZeeEEe TZZZEEEeEEee"OH Gawd! the SOUND ITSELF has stooppped my heartbeat~he prepares the anaesthesia(@____@) why is it sooo... big..?*he injects in anesthesia*"ARHHH!!!!!!............" i was twitching like an earthworm out from the soilso PAINFUL... *SOB SOB SOB*but den i din intend to cry sia.I had the sudden urge to luff instead!" i testing arh"he use a pincer to poke my footMAGIC! No sensation at aLL!Here it goess.."tzEE TZeee TZeeeee" the voltage was 22 n he graduali increase to 30 ehh..I smell CHAO TA!!!Dr LOoi still say "EH, LIke salted FIsh smell Ar!!"Mammmmmayy was luffing!At on moment , i peeped guess wad! smoke was rising from my foot!WALAOOOO. I culd feel h use a scissor to cut a skin from my foootmummmmmaayy say it looks like opening a canthe machine hung on the wall was disturbing me~It produced a "Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii"like those in the dramadied n the heart reader "tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii"same heremy heart oso nearly go "tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..lub-dub.. lub-dub..tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii"siala.. the chao ta smeelll veri strong"jin chim, sio diao yi eh tao jiu buay ko sei liao" ( means veri deep, burn its head den it wun cum out again)FINAALLLIE done~!!! phew.. the thing hole is so deepp.. n still got dark crust..like chao ta... scaryy..
.freaky boring dae.
god.todae is a damn boring daei slept the whole afternoongrrhhwellsum ppl r realli farking attitudeu think by doing tat will make us guilty?oh boii think u've got ur wernicke's area broke downcant u SEE how PISSED i m wif uoh godi wonder if u haf severe cataractsGod, i'm sorrie for using SUM abusive languageBUTu shuld understand how he is like better den me do ya? my lord?(oo, i'm not a christian, but i respect god)-the following MITE instill discomfort after seeing, PAISEH-it's quite fruitful todaemum hold my hands and tok to meshe saidthey wil b going to indonesia to do grave-visiting it's the place tat i went b4it's scary.. delapidated n quietwif long, long grasseschilly windand wif no lights or lamp postearlie in the morningu culd feel sumone beside u at timesthere seemed to b sumone hiding under the light of ur torchliteu feel sumone breathing behind ur neckbut u noe there's no one else therether were big centipedes gliding fiercely round the gravea small hill of soil behind the gravestanding on topu can see the whole other gravesMummy say daddy is going tooshe looked into my eyestelling me tat things r unpredictable nownatural castrophe, man-made disasternobody noes when wil our house be shaking nexshe said they r going by cruiseand she herself may not noe wad happenedthe amount of worries n sadness surmounting in my eyesshe wan me to study hardn if i culd, b a doctorhelp the poor and aid the needyshe said no matter wad happensshe wan me to b strongand look fardespite how ppl may look down on medespite how ppl roll their tongues behind my backshe ask me to b strongif ever ppl put me downshe say don b afraidshe taught me wad is retributioni noe mummy's words of lovei lurve mummymummy, u'll be back by my side ya?i will pray to god evrydaemummy, i lurve u mummy. thanks for feeding me fat in the pastcuz u allow me to see the cold faces and act bravelymummy i lurve u~I'll mug for exams n wait for u n daddyand we'll all go for a movie n luff inside the lift Mummy, i lurve u.
