kiss my forehead and say iloveyou: July 2005

Saturday, July 30, 2005

SOmetimes i wonder why

I'm Not a racist.. BUT i JuZ hate THEm creeping BEhind ME! i had a goooood shock. after todae's surgery on the foot, i've been like shivering in the surgery room (partly coz of the aircon, and i m alone for tht moment). Juz now, as i trudged on the lonely path home, blasting my MD, the whole road looks creepy dark and quiet.. i sang and danced a lil' w/ Justin's Good FOOt, i donno why.. it seem like i had sum intuition.. i turn and GOT in SHOCK! i SAW a HEAD sticking OUT beHind my BACK, floating in the air( he's got a moustache..)! I nearly jump ~~i didnt la.. coz i noe my foot is bleeding inside~~it may cause a lil' quake. i was like "WTH" ehhs, den onli i realise he's wearing a white top.. esHHh, friggin' damn.. he' a ~~indian~~human~ WALAO.. PHEW. no offence, i love u ppl. but plz, plz don scare me lidat.. i may get hysterious and HILARIOUS..
thank god. hahaha. =P

Thursday, July 28, 2005

feelin' good( better den ytd?)

i haf problems. big attitude problems. muahha. i donno. nash sae i looked SCARY when i don smile.. i mean REALLIE?? i m so sweet. *puke* nahz. hehe. i noe. but i juz don feel lik smiling to anyone okae. yay. sorrie tht i scared certain ppl. but i juz lurve my schoolmates. geees. i noe whenever i fall, the may not help me up, they probably stand there and make sure i get up myself. yay? hehe! haiyaaaaaaaa! HmpHH~!~!!!
anywae, oh no, By the wae. If u've go biggggg problems in r/s, i haf this good link for ya. go to my link "mickey" u can read sum advices over ther. geees. he' my fren. but i realli think he has a mature wae of thinking. so ppl, don wait kae. he's great. hehe.
hai. i wan to wear nice nice.. but i m shy! i m flabby. geees. ~~damn! i said it!! i admitted it! damN! i exposed it to te whole world! wad relieve!!~~

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

what i taught

i teach myself to stand up on my feet whenever i fall. i lurve whoever lurves me. and i lurve whoever used to lurve me. i oso lurve whoever hates me. most importantly, i lurve all of u. i lurve u, my darling.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

curlin' up

i've been low these daes. i feel hurt. why did the problem cum again n again. i juz feel so dumb and numb. i've been keeping quiet , sometimes deep in thoughts. i promise myself i wil never b a loser. i mean it. i m true to everything. and i mean it. i m sensitive to the changes. i can see it. and do u noe it hurt me deep into my heart? the hurt sank deep into my heart, it grip me so tight, i can hardly breathe easy. i own an explanation. the changes, why. i m no longer tht ger who accept everything tht cums. coz i live to be happy. i ought to be.
i went our wit irah to tpy from sch. we talked. and her view matched mine. i cried in the bus. fearing to be played out. i juz wanna feel secure, but rite now i lose control. can u gif me the feeling again? my tears kept rollin' and rollin' down my cheeks. everything seemed so telly. irah, u r not at fault, don blame urself. i shuld thank you from sharing your views. i wil b strong. i asked myself why did i cried. yes. i feel hurt. why. i m scared.
haf u ever felt so scared tht u cried at nite
haf u ever felt so lose tht u cnt speak ur mind
haf u ever thot things wuld go rite but they backfired on u
haf u ever? haf u?
i love you. so much. i m afraid tht at one glance u mite said "it's all gone"
i love u. i reallie love u..

Sunday, July 24, 2005

late at nite

i m tuned into my cd. haha. this few daes, iwalk ard the streets, i kpt remembering mani mani things. haha. tao's restaurant, our neoprints, our ktv, everything n everything. i didnt cry. reallie. i didnt. it's not onli temper tht ruin everyhing. tis temper is not onli u, if u r reading. it's all of us. i've been thinking abt psychology i've learn in sch. i m more able to accept ~~wad's happening~~ wad had happened. i thank u for once standing by my side when me n mel quarrel. i juz wan u to noe, i stil appreciate u. n of cos, another jie too. aniwae we'll all jus carry on w/ our life den. haha. cos i don wish for any revival. tis chance pass, and i shal let it go. jus like the wind, like the poem i wrote. keke. take care. probably, freeezing this part of memories, so tht i won feel sohurt and cried thru the nite again. but i felt more stronger now, coz i smiled and nv did i regret anything. anything. =)

my life's pretty busy now. coz of everything. but i lurve life now. coz everything happened juz make me feel stronger, and happier.

and warric, i donwan SLIMFIt! i wan X-trim!!! hahaha! shit! are u implying tht i m fat!!!!!
grrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Friday, July 22, 2005

hoho, ruined. great isnt it?

haha. u noe wad, when i get angry once, i told 2 person "don bug me n i wun bug u" but too bad, they don understand the meaning of it. anywae, rite now , the whole frenship is ruined. i don trust anyone. no more. coz two gers r at two extreme side. mama told me sumthing. now i changed my mind who i want to trust. even times when i cried over "oppo of sunshine", she now cried saying we r fake. fucking fake. that's wad she sae. ya. i felt hurt. but i nv deny wad i said. i was saying we din mean it not saying we deny it, we r asking her to take her time but don forget. well, there r too mani miscommunication. anywae, ya. we r fuckers. rite now, i guess we don haf frenship anymore. i do feel like crying. cos both r my darn good fger frens jus 2 weeks ago. hahaha.
anywae, nobody can tok thru u. and i jus feel tht, i m happy tht i haf a good life wif my poly frens.
rite now, her frens wil think i m a fucker n sucker. but anywae, haha. i can jus laugh it off. everything was ruined coz of "TEMPER". hahah. but apart frm being a fucker, i still wish her good health. probably i ruined it by saying " i wun bug u, u wun bug me" hahaha. anywae, it takes two hands to clap yay. means they din say sumthing, i wun say in reply rite.
haiya. nvm la. i tis year fan tai sui. suan liao la. soon, time wil take over everything n this woes will b heal. hahahaha.
be it the memories, they wil jus fade awae la. frens, now r jus so subjective. hahhaa. communications is the rite wae of establishing good r/s. i wil not paste a plaster hoping my wound wil heal, hahha. coz no matter wad, a scar wil stil b there. i donno la. everything is so ruined now. hahha. i donno. sekali a month later i m living alone in a rented room yay? hahaha
or put a plaster hoping frens wuld cum back. she is not a fucker, though she repepatedly says so much fucking in her diary. i m serious. she has a good side. i mean both gers haf a good side. but i accept them as lidat. coz my frens kip telling me in sch, we shuld accept them as they r. probably my ears r light, i listen too much frm a side. and i donno. once a ger gets angry, they wil jus blabble everything and den hahahaha. u noe. gers' fight. and den the so-called friendship wil be like dust. haha. oh, mayb i m the ruin-er yay? geeees. wadever it is. i shal cry now and forget the whole dumb thing. coz nes time when i sat by the road side i wil suddenly think abt it. i wil onli promise myself mummy n daddy wil nv noe abt tis. coz i think i stil welcome her to my hse. i mean it. i probably turn in earlie (to prepare for sch?) den.
the diamond wonderful times r gone. i feel nothing now. coz they sae everything has an ending. probably this teaches us all a lesson tht is to communicate face to face. hahahaah. goddammit' its too late to say~! i haf NO INTENTION FOR ANY REVIVAL. coz i believe in no matter how bad u haf been "talked" about,( like me, i may oreadi b a hot topic in their family and frens), haiya. suan le la. i can jus think abt it for a moment, i stil haf to continue serving bedpans wad. i mean tht's how life goes on n on. i cnt stop anywhere anywae.
so aiya, let's jus all move on. hahah. be it they sae i m fake, or fucker or sucker. hahahah. my bestie told me tht i shuld appreciate them for ONCE being in my life. i shuld now continue on my life with those who r stil by my side.
hehehe. remember children, life's alwaes lidat. hehehe. i don nid a revival round, coz i lost tis, i probably haf new opportunities on the door. if not so, i stil haf my besties smarties in school. and i lurve my sister. stil, no matter how mad i was. hahha.
byes, ex-frens of wonderful memories~~

peace! i feel peace now!!! haha!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

my voluntary work, i look round and sick..

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i volunteered. and lil' did i noe WHY i volunteered. i mean which human wuld agree to have a tube to be INSERTED thru the Nose to the pharynx an into my lil' biggie tummy( no la, it's Stomach.) ? ~~mayb i wasnt human enough~~
twas' traumatising to my mucosa cos i bled a lil' when lyza did it on my left nostril. Gees! everyone was like watching an animal tht came frm sum alien land. they were so tense. i think as tense as me or me.
my eyes were abit swollen in the picture, cuz my tears rolled down when the resistance was traumatising me. Gees. when they see the blood mix wif mucus in the tube during aspiration, everyone was traumatised and screams echoed in their shocked Faces
HA HA! i donno. but i felt it was a fun and fruitful experience, memorable too. i lurve all my poly classmates! hahaha! cuz i realise they r so cute! and learning can b hilarious too. =P
twas' like i can nvr forget all this time even when i grow old, i m gonna tell my future kids ( if i had any) tht "last time auntie lyza got put tube inside me u noe!" hehee.
woO~O!! i noe life's short. and i donnno how long i m gonna live my wae. but i felt happier these daes. like i found myself and more able to accept myself as who i m. and i m enjoying. though things alwaes happened at the times when i am most stressed, but my fren reminded me tis, tht is i don live in this world to mak everyone happie. gees. i love my family no matter what. and my frens.
yay! haha! i juz love schling! and i shal sae tht, i am simple, realli. i am. if u don lik me, it's okae. haa. xp
PEAce OuT!

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

todae is about Sins and Karma

i donno why.
but rite now, i reallie fin dat i understand and realli lurve I'M THE KING OF CASTLE.
sumtimes when i think back, i find dat ppl who prey another one by saying bad things. den after dat became veri good wif the victim. den after dat, not on good terms, they SIMPLY PUSH blame the victims for everything. yay loh. i now realise ppl ard me ALWAES blames to ppl with convenience. can u see how selfish they r? they haf everything in life. and with tis authority, they step down on ppl, hard, and voodoo them, curse them, and of cos, victimise them. for what? the reason is as simple, they cannot take the truth about them. u noe wad. i wil just say "fark the world la u". just like the wae when KINGSHAW REBUKED for the fist time to dat bastard "FUCK TO YOU". they owaes say 1001 and one lies to cover ONE SIMPLE lie they said. it's obvious. i've seen it. i thnk in my life, i noe exactly who is mrs kinghaw and the STUPID Mr father of bastard who likes mrs kingshaw. and now, cos tat person is siding the predator, thus, the victim has more vulnerability.
those who read tis book, it was realie nice. a good book. i do believe tales of such real life sit. happens in the society. mayb sumwhere, it REALLIE happened.
i onli noe dat sum ppl don deserve to b treated nice. and i noe dat ther wil owaes be ppl who blame u forever for wad is disadvantaged to them, but they wil nv nv noe dat they once ( or mayb more den dat) hurt ppl w/o realising, and now or i wuld say, EVENTUALIE, they get it back, they still blame others for karma happening on them.
no wonder karma keeps cuming, cuz nobody understands it. well. =)

Monday, July 18, 2005

life get shitty, but good wil cum, owaes.

i donno why but i noe when life get a lil' shitty den ever, sumthing good wil cum, i ~~had~~ have owaes believe in tis, and i mean always. sometimes ppl around reallie make me feel like putting my head in he toilet bowl, no, i mean put their head into the toilet bowl instead, so when the water flush, they flush along all those shitty things they ever done. some they sae " XXX siao one lehz!". but in the friggin' end, they went out haf fun n hang out. damn. i sometimes don understand why cant ppl b as true as wad they sae. yay? when they were angry, they sae tis, but when they were calm, they deny their fault. u noe wad, i juz wanna tel them my piece of advice, tat is :" u farkingly pisses me off, can u get ur as' outta' ma lyfe?"
so long they nv understand, wad they sae may no harm themselves, but it culd kill other ppl, damn friggin' scary. BUT, they were nv afraid to say things that culd harm a life or like me, i get guilty if i ever sae sumthing NOT TRUE abt a person. or when they are angry but they apologise,yet no meaning wad they sae. oh, wad's da point. i remember my buds in sch said once "smile like u mean it." yay? i realli think so.
rite now i don even care who is reading or who isnt. cuz i noe onli my poly frens lurve me now. muahahaa~! i donno. mayb. and mayb ying n mong. haa.
i experience a D-H-S, and wad, it realli hurts and sucks. i mean tat stirs lotsa trouble, but yearns to b believed. c'mon, hell if i believe in u, i think i wuld haf got the most hurt.
i muz thank tis person, who said i was a sucker (i guess u din mean it, =>, aniwae) that he oso taught me another thing. tat is "take everything with a pinch of salt" hey guy, thanks sincerely.u were rite. i guess if i spoonfed myself with those big SPOONIE, i think i wil b dehydrated. (i mean got hurt n cry n cry n.. )
probably, in tis world, u don get to meet ppl as in ALOT, that r true. however, dat doesnt mean u haf to stop n barrier urself in dat circle or corner, ur life probably ends there. i stil lurve life alot. and i believe in this world, i don live to make everyone happy, cuz i don owe anyone a living, n no one owes me a living either.
i am thinking i was ~~so mature~~ old enough to handle problems, by reacting calm-ly. i noe i got veri violent, i curled up n cried, i hit the walls in the toilet( yay, i got myself bruised.) i noe it didnt take me more den a minute to realise i need to cool down.
when u r down, u probably go so violent n everything u think u made urself feel worse. sometimes the problems doesnt lie with the other party, it's how u view the problem!
Friendship is an important part of my life, and i thank god, erm, buddha, bodhi, goddess and god Ghanesha for making me an appreciative person.
of cos i reaallie reallie wanna thanks tese ppl in my life. i mean juz in case i reallie got no chance to sae, i shall sae it now, thanks eileen irah lyza mic nasha sheau harn ying mong bang elaine. haha. thanks my darling.
i think this were wad i was thinking for todae. each individual are different and i noe not all frens wil treasure the wae u r. so i wun force. let whoever cum n go, i wil juz grab those close to my heart. yay. i mean nobody can face problemS at one goal okae. u've gotta be calm n easy. and oso enjoy thru it. if u choose not to brood over it, u can. i m doing it rite now. =)
AMITABHA.
And i m glad i'm back in schooL. P.S: I JUST LURVE SCHOOLING NOW!! geeees.
besides the point, i had nite class for the first ime, it was realli fun! i met joanne, maliga everone n everyone! so fun! we r in the same lecture hall~ and i miss the whole lot of them, in a whole grp! hehee. great. school's fun. althought life goes up and down, it still goes on rite? yay. i jus nid to stay happie. ( to lose weight. HA HA HA) =P peace Out!

Sunday, July 17, 2005

FARK TO ALL

i donno was it because todae was a long sundae. was it todae a bad luck dae. or was it todae an international breakdown dae. or international i doonno. i feel veri violent now. i want to hit the walls and bruise myself. everything. i hate myself. it feels like everyone is stepping on me. Fark to all. all of u. ALL. yes. ask urself. Fark to u .fark to all. yes. i m at fault. i m owaes at fault. it's owaes my bloody fault rite. SHUT THE HELL UP!!!SHUT UP.

.i am not so much needed in this friendship anymore.

i think i am not so much needed anymore. cuz i think friendship has a limit some dumb times. or am i not good enuff? i think must be i am not pretty enough? can tis b part of the reason? or was it because i m not in the same ..?
ever thot why i refused sometimes even when i wanted so much? i love u guys so much. bu i end up getting nth' outta it. probably, i m far behind ur life. outcast. thinkin' about the dumb times when i sat and watched u all, i probably could haf stay at home and watch the dumb tv. i wanted so much to tel my everything. but i onli sat there to listen to everything instead. i felt like a dumb ass. all the times i am out. i felt so dumb. dumb as in dumb n mute.
i haf my own problems. but rite now.. probably none wil b here listening to me. friendship is not like this. i am hurt. Dumb.

and now tis sounds like my premonitions.

staring at the sky glowing wif stars
what did u see?
was it the sky wif no boundary
or the dae we spent together?

back in our memory-land
r we pondering overthe same memory?
was it the sweeet recollections
or those moments of heartfelt happiness?

by the beach we once shared
r wad u heard
the loud roaring waves
or the laughters tat once so unforgettable?

has our friendship came to an end?
the blue sky we used to share
has it all became so different, lookin' back now?
r u feeling wad i felt
returning to the past
to the first yearm when we first met?

or mayb at tis moment
the familiar greetings became unheard whispers

frm tis second
the wind wil blow awae the sweet moments
the clouds, thy wil bring along the sadness
and me
and me..
i'll smile and watch the dusk breaking into the nite

and you?

and you.

Goodbye.

Life's a bitch bundle of boredom

sundae?
Sundae?!
Sundae?
SUndae???~!

Sundae??~!

Sundae?????~!!!!!!

and i mean sundae. GOH LEE KHENG U R AT HOME?! oh how borin'. get a life.

i wanted. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want o go out. i want to go out . i want to go out. ~~okae, i'll stay at home.~~ i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. i want to go out. ~~Stay at home?~~ i want to go outtttttt.

how mani times i've siad? i lost count. they sae i u repeat sumthing for a long time u'll get it. no, i don see it!

i want to go out i want to go out i want o go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out.

enufffffff.
phew. why cnt i get a more interesting life. i think i look lik my dogs. no wonder they look so haggard. muz b noob-ing at home. probably.
Oh~
probably i wil go walk the dogs! hmm.
~~or mayb let them walk me?~~ i was kidding. or probably i sit behind and noob with them? yeah yeah, tat's it. hmm, or mayb i NOE! they owaes count the ants. yes, tis one is better! or mayb i shal try 4 limbs on the floor and do sum roll-lickin' stuffs like my dogs? which one is better? mayb i should ask them to bring me out. yeah!i should. i mean.. should i..?

Thursday, July 14, 2005

poooFFFff boRing Sundae

it's boring. i wanted so much time when i was hafing attachment. rite now i haf so much time, but i've go no where to go or no one to go out with. hell. life's ironic. i mean ALL the times, ya? haiyea.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

why cnt i lead the life i wan?

why cnt i decide
the kind of life
i wanna lead

i m juz an 18yr old
stil young
and lively
i don haf to care abt
wad kind of life
i wuld lead in future
why tok abt now?

why haf to tok abt
matchmake me
wif 30yrs old rich guy?

Monday, July 11, 2005

IS tis the kind of holidaes i haf?

My first holidae on a mondae. it seems darn borin'. i went to schooL to buy yR2 books. ( i am unofficially a yr2, aint it grreat?) i met up wif nasha in schOOl. and i managed to stuff Lian's Lyza's n irah's into nasha's locker. hehhe~
i met up with yueying @toapayoh. i had the BK salad. it was quite nice~! yeah. i mean nice as in.. edible?
so i went to her house. yeah. i noe. Again, rite? i 've been going to her house for like.. i donno. i've got noth' i can reallie do up with. i wanted to go to the library. i wanted to go shopping. i wanted to go for movies. i wanted o meet up with my friends. i wanted everything and everything. i mean i reallie go no tonnes of ideas where shuld i realli go or do. i am juz so BORED. tat's the word.
so hmm.. and den..
aiyo. bored. wish Chiew lian came back. so i can hang out with her. my ah lian arh.. faster cum back from pahang hao bu hao~~~~~~

Sunday, July 10, 2005

idiots

imagine sumone cals u a sucker
and ask u not to react
so big to other's opinion
orite
if i were to say u r a
sickening
freaking
cuckoonathan
blood sucking
person
"oh pls don react so big"
"twas' a mere comment ya?"

haha.

tis world is sucking
n sucking
every ml of my blood

nahZ.
*shrugs*

btw
i went out wif ying!
Shit!
I missed her! hehehe
we've been missing out
So much!

geees~

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Thanks Dady!

there's tis veri sweet guy
whom i cal him
"daddy fazel"
he's a real good father
he support whoever i am wif
listens to my problem
n gif words of wisdom to me
now
he bought me 2 free tix
"initial D" todae
for me n mel
he said his purpose was to
hope we gals enjoy each other company
he's sweet
and a good daddy
thanks daddy fazel
love u, dadddy.
=)

My mel monster.
like i promised
i had to write abtwad happened
ya?

'twas a sat 19/06
i went out wif my
gf my 2 sis to the KTV
b4 i left to meet my prata frens
i sang "ni zui zhen gui" wif her
when i left
i knew she wan me to stay
but she allow me to go for tis nite
wif my frens, to chill abit
i told her i wuld b back
first bus or 6plus 7
and she nodded

i met a whole lot of them~!
twas fun~
as ever
they r stil like they were
crappy
cheeky
funnie
retarded(no la)
sot blood
i reaallie feel great!
a whole lot of memories flush back
twas a lovely nite out wif them
mel msg me goodnyte
so i assumed
there was no nid to reply
we went to the bridge
where i used to stay
Gino n king were dancing
so i took picts of them!
but gino kept dancing behind king
donno why~
so picts i took were
ASSUMED to b KINg onli

i had breakfast wif liang n NA
i reached hom at exactly 7am
n when i tried to gif her a hug
she shoved me awae
and said sternly
"I want to go toilet"
wad was it supposed to mean
even when i tried to tok to her
she ignored me
i told her in the noon
"can u tel me wad had i done wrong"
"rite, if u wan to ignore me
den ignore me FOREVER"
she remain silence
at nite
when she loaded the pict to the com
she ASKED
"WHO IS TIS GUY IN THE PICT?"
and i was stil smiling saying he is
my senior n schmate
they were dancing cheekily
so i took their picts
guess wad
she asked for one pict to
be deleted
n i say can
she deleted ALL THE PICTS
slamming the keyboard

the nex moment i went to her
and said
"mel kuek,
i seriously think
i don deserve all tis treatment"
i cried upon saying tis
she showed guilt
but it was too late
i walked awae

when she was booking in camp
she wanted to kiss me
i shunned n kissed her cheeks

we noe it hurts
but i thot i had enuff
if i gif in again n again
i get tired
i was oreadi too tired..
i noe at tis moment
toking things thru' is the best
n i noe
she has a bad temper
she lives in her own world
she owaes avoid the truth
i thot
we wil nv make it thru..

the nex dae20/06
was my sis birthdae
after the party
we tok it thru
i was calm
n peaceful
cuz i noe
i wasnt at fault

when i asked her
why did she deleted
all those PICTs of my buddy's
she thot it was amusing
i said
"yes.i want to noe.
cuz u r disrespecting my frens"
she felt offended and said
"So u mean to say u took pict
of onli a guy in particular
r u trying to tel me
u like him?"

at tat moment..
i reallie feel like stabbing
myself to deathh
after been thru a year
i gaf her all she needed
love cARE concern
respect freedom frens time
do i deserve all tis
she is treating me now?

i asked for a timeout
cuz after one long year
384daes
and i stil don earn her trust
i reallie thot
wad was the point of being
together
she got violent ard 2plu
in the morning
i noe she wuld wan to leave the house
i blocked the door
n she got so violent
but she din hit me.
n i noe she wuldnt.

i went to work
everything went well
i thot i can cope
cuz i don remember anything
n i thot i wil gif up
onli when i reached home 9plus
i saw her at the opposite bus stop
my heart sank instantly
our motions slowed down
the memories all came back
the hurt all came back

i went home
they told me she wun b back tis weekend
n they picts were restored
the prob is i wasnt mad at her
whether the pict was restored
its the hurt tat
i don get her trust
after all tis time

i cried
tears came flowing
non stopping
i stil love her
like i owaes do
i stil remember her smile
her moves
her child-like expressions
the wae she tok
the wae she luff
the wae she kissed n smell my hair
everything
i sobbed thru the nite

she msged me
"we may argue, quarrel,
may oso say things 2 hurt
each other,
it gets worse b4 it gets better
but it's alwaysour luv
tt keep us 2gether.
so i'm not gonna leave u.
i still lurve u wif all my heart.
Dear ,plz forgive me!
i'm think you every now n then..
Everynite i've been seeing
the video clip dat u saved to my hp.
Each time i see it,
my tears will automatically grip down.
i really miss u..
BAdly! i really do.."

on thurs
i asked her
"u realli dowan to cum back
on sat"
i noe she wan
but i said
"i haven sae i wil forgif u kae"
=)
the silly darling of mine

twas sat
she cam home
but dared not look at me
we were calm
n tok things thru..
we luffed smiled
embraced.

i felt great n honourable
cuz it was the fist time me n her
we tok abt philosophy of life
we face tis world w/o avoiding
i love tis kind of feelings
i love toking to her abt life

it was a great thing
i made it thru wif her
i reallie lurve her
n i told her
"no matter wad happen
u wil owaes b in my heart"
i promise i wil remember her
cuz tis a promise of
my own life
my own principle

i mean it.
cuz she noe
i nv lie to her ever b4.

we treasure
each moment we spent
now n then.
=)

had to thanks in appreciation
to
Eileeen
irah
Elaine
jie
rain jie!

oso
lian
joanne
nash
hehe. =)

kiss my forehead and say iloveyou

Saturday, July 30, 2005

SOmetimes i wonder why

Thursday, July 28, 2005

feelin' good( better den ytd?)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

what i taught

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

curlin' up

Sunday, July 24, 2005

late at nite

Friday, July 22, 2005

hoho, ruined. great isnt it?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

todae is about Sins and Karma

Monday, July 18, 2005

life get shitty, but good wil cum, owaes.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

FARK TO ALL

.i am not so much needed in this friendship anymore.

Life's a bitch bundle of boredom

Thursday, July 14, 2005

poooFFFff boRing Sundae

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

why cnt i lead the life i wan?

Monday, July 11, 2005

IS tis the kind of holidaes i haf?

Sunday, July 10, 2005

idiots

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Thanks Dady!

lets wee hear

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kiss my forehead and say iloveyou

Saturday, July 30, 2005

SOmetimes i wonder why

Thursday, July 28, 2005

feelin' good( better den ytd?)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

what i taught

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

curlin' up

Sunday, July 24, 2005

late at nite

Friday, July 22, 2005

hoho, ruined. great isnt it?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

todae is about Sins and Karma

Monday, July 18, 2005

life get shitty, but good wil cum, owaes.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

FARK TO ALL

.i am not so much needed in this friendship anymore.

Life's a bitch bundle of boredom

Thursday, July 14, 2005

*poooFFFff* boRing Sundae

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

why cnt i lead the life i wan?

Monday, July 11, 2005

IS tis the kind of holidaes i haf?

Sunday, July 10, 2005

idiots

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Thanks Dady!

lets wee hear

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poooFFFff boRing Sundae